I can still see it vividly in my mind like it just happened.
I am sitting on a tiny airplane and feeling it shake as it ascends higher and higher.
I am sweating and my face feels hot and feverish.
My stomach is in knots with a mix of nausea and anxiety.
Even though this entire event was planned, I can feel the rush of adrenaline warp my vision and heighten my senses.
Bizarrely, I feel at the same time completely numb and emotionless.
Suddenly, the cabin door opens and the gentleman attached behind me close enough to make me feel like I should have let him buy me a drink first motions for me to move.
I wonder if I will be able to follow the order as my body and brain feel paralyzed and for an instant I want to hide and cry and somehow backtrack to the safe place I was before all this began.
My legs won’t do anything and I can’t figure out why my brain is shutting down all functions of movement and thought at the moment I need it the most.
The man behind me starts to move and suddenly my limbs start working again.
We get to the door and make a rolling leap out into the open sky.
For a moment, I see nothing but twirling sky and colors and then we stabilize and I am looking out at the beautiful world below me from 10,000 feet.
It is strangely serene and relaxing.
All I can feel and hear is the wind rushing by me as we fall and I see the true beauty of this experience.
The fear is gone.
I am here in the sky and there is nothing else.
Shortly after, I feel a strain on my legs and crotch like the devil himself kicked me with his full force straight into my manhood.
I hear and watch the colors unfold as the parachute opens.
The wind slows down and I can start to see the ground come slowly closer as we descend to sure footing and almost the exact spot where we started.
My description of fear was actually before one of the most exhilarating experiences of my life but the feelings can be extremely real and frightening in times of uncertainty and challenge.
I see it all around me.
I get it.
I don’t want to get sick and die.
I don’t want anyone I love to get sick and die.
I don’t want you or anyone you love to get sick and die.
Ultimately, the effects of trying to slow down this virus are tragic and far reaching.
Not only do we have this virus with a high hospitalization and death rate.
But now so many people are out of work and money and there is not even an end in sight to start putting our lives back together.
Perhaps we should have been more prepared and while I hope that lesson has been learned, that doesn’t help the people who weren’t.
I see hysteria, panic, judgment, and fear all around me.
We can talk about whether it is justified and I don’t really care.
What I do know most certainly is that fear brings out our worst.
I don’t do what is best for me and others when I am scared.
In those times, I have let it rule my emotions and actions.
I worked for bosses who treated me terribly because I was afraid I could not do better and wouldn’t be able to pay my bills.
I have stayed in toxic and unfulfilling relationships because of the fear of being alone and what people would say or think.
I wouldn’t say I have overcome fear, but right now I don’t feel scared.
I stopped mostly reading the news and scrolling on fb feeds (mostly arguing now).
If you need a motivator look back at history and see what happened when mass populace was being controlled or at least thinking fearful thoughts.
They have become controlled by others, hypochondriac, and in many cases enslaved and killed.
Whatever we focus on becomes our world.
It’s not just semantic, we literally create our reality through what we think about.
I have shifted to thinking about in what ways can I use this time to figure out what I can do now to help myself and others.
The brain cannot simultaneously focus on more than one thing.
It can be difficult with what is going on around us, but with effort, a person can redefine his or her life.
For me, I find books, audios, and activities that put my brain to work on something productive.
If I look for ways to fill a need, I can typically find one.
If you need to make money doing it, then figure out a product, skill, or service that is in need right now.
Ideally, it would be something you are specifically good or talented at.
Perhaps it will become a new hobby, occupation, or business.
Don’t discount skills that seem like they don’t apply.
People are craving human connection, entertainment, and comfort right now.
There are a myriad of ideas on this site if you need help with ideas to get your brain going.
If you just move past the fear, it may be the most beautiful and rewarding time of your life.
Thank you for reading.
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Phillip Adams